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[[Thursday, June 22, 2006]]

Training was one of a hell today. It was my second time training with Vivien. We have like so little time left, yet there are like a million things that i still need to do. I always got the feeling that i am a burden to Vivien, pulling her down. She's like the strongest k2 rower, yet our boat is always the slowest. Our balance could not make it, my catch was not effective and my stokes sucked. Throughout the whole training, i was scolded by Vivien. But i just want you to know that like what Mei shan says, i am very honoured to have you scolding me. You have never ever scolded any of your partners before. Today was the first time. I know you were fustrated in the boat. It was a sprint, it was supposed to be smooth sailing with us pushing our best. Yet the boat still tilted and rocked. I was still so unfocused during the race, letting all the minor things distract me. I was really touched that you told me not to take it to heart, but i will. I'll remember all the scolding because it is for my own good. I used to think that i was a burden to you, but now i feel otherwise. I want to pull hard for you and Dawn. I want to pull as hard as you are pulling for me on the boat. Partners should share the pain and sufferings. I know i may not be very strong, but i will have a desire in my rowing now. I will extend my threshold of pain and give my 101% effort. We had a k2 girls meeting today after the training. It was really inspirational and emotional. Joy asked us if the juniors were really pushing to their hardest or were we just setting limits on ourselves. She asked what exactly were our threshold of pain and whether we could really give more than what we are giving now. She gave us the best example of the person who could take the most pain in the team, Shien. Shien fractured her ribcage, yet she still trained as hard and even harder than some of us during trainings. She numbed her body during trainings, didnt bother about the dangers that she could face if she pushed too hard. She went through all the same pain with us during training with a fractured ribcage. All this was for what? She did it for the team. She had the desire and the heart for the team. She trained so hard just to enter the finals so that she could earn a few points for the team, and just for that, she was risking her life. For that i admire her and look up to her. How many of us can be compared to her? Can we really say that we pushed our hardest until the pain was reached? Could we have pushed through this pain? Can our pain we encounter during training be compared with that of hers during and after training? I believe that there is so much more that we can give from within us. It is our belief and desire that would work miracles. We row with our heart and not with the body. The body can work miracles if we believe in the correct things and have the desire to do so. You must have the courage to push through the pain. After all, the pain during the race is only temporary.In order to win the race, you must first beat yourself. If you can beat your mental weakness of the pain during the race, then you can beat your opponents. It is never too late to start and i believe that we should all have a new aspect in us. The burning desire to push the hardest and even harder through our pain. Only in this way can we improve and give our 101% effort. heart and soul.

*me having fun @10:09 PM*

[[*Daddy]]

Her hair was up in a pony tail,
her favorite dress tied with a bow.
Today was "Daddy's Day" at school,
and she couldn't wait to go.

But her mommy tried to tell her,
that she probably should stay home.
Why the kids might not understand,
if she went to school alone.

But she was not afraid;
she knew just what to say.
What to tell her classmates
of why he wasn't there today.

But still her mother worried,
for her to face this day alone.
And that was why once again,
she tried to keep her daughter home.

But the little girl went to school
eager to tell them all.
Of a dad who's never there
a dad who never calls.

There were daddies along the wall in back,
for everyone to meet.
Children squirming impatiently,
anxious in their seats.

One by one the teacher called
a student from the class.
To introduce their daddy,
as seconds slowly passed.

At last the teacher called her name,
every child turned to stare.
each of them was searching,
for a man who wasn't there.

"Where's her daddy at?!"
she heard a boy call out.
"She probably doesn't have one,"
another student dared to shout.

And from somewhere near the back,
She heard another father say,
"Looks like another deadbeat dad,
too busy to waste his day."

The words did not offend her,
as she smiled up at her Mom,
and looked back at her teacher,
who told her to go on.

And with hands behind her back,
Slowly she began to speak
And out from the mouth of a child,
came words incredibly unique.

"My Daddy couldn't be here,
because he lives so far away.
But I know he wishes he could be,
Since this is such a special day.

And though you cannot meet him,
I wanted you to know.
All about my daddy
and how much he loves me so.

He loved to tell me stories
he taught me to ride my bike.
He surprised me with pink roses,
and taught me to fly a kite.

We used to share fudge sundaes,
and ice cream in a cone.
And though you cannot see him.
I'm not standing here alone."

"Cause my daddy's always with me,
even though we are apart
I know because he told me,
he'll forever be in my heart"

With that, her little hand reached up,
and lay across her chest.
Feeling her own heartbeat,
beneath her favorite dress.

And from somewhere in the crowd of dads,
her mother stood in tears.
Proudly watching her daughter,
who was wise beyond her years.

And when she dropped her hand back down,
staring straight into the crowd.
She finished with a voice so soft,
but its message clear and loud.

"I love my daddy very much,
he's my shining star.
And if he could, he'd be here,
but heaven's just too far "

"You see he was a fireman
and died just this past year
When airplanes hit the towers
and taught Americans to fear.

But sometimes when I close my eyes,
it's like he never went away."
And then she closed her eyes,
and saw him there that day.

And to her mother's amazement,
she witnessed with surprise.
A room full of daddies and children,
all starting to close their eyes.

Who knows what they saw before them,
Who knows what they felt inside
Perhaps for merely a second,
they saw him at her side.

"I know you're with me Daddy,"
to the silence she called out.
And what happened next made believers,
of those once filled with doubt.

Not one in that room could explain it,
for each of their eyes had been closed..
But there on the desk beside her,
was a fragrant long-stemmed pink rose.

Anon.

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