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[[Saturday, June 17, 2006]]

We lost one tiltle today.
We tried but we didnt try hard enough. It's the first time in so many years.
The junior team really wanted to defend the national dragon boat competition tiltles this year. We wanted to do for our seniors, for the college, for mr yong and for the whole j1 team. it's really not that we didnt push, its just whether we pushed hard enough. But i guess we are just not there yet, we still have a lot to catch up, a lot to learn. Time is precious and we dont have much of that left. Nationals are coming soon, just a mere few weeks from now. After this competition today, mr yong seemed to have lost all the little faith that he had in us. We lacked courage, the courage to fight through together as a team. There was much less team and fighting spirit on the boat today compared with the Mr 500 race. It made a lot of difference when the seniors were there and when there were no seniors.The boat seemed to have lost its connection with the water. There was the glide, but there was no feel of the glide. It was just there for the sake of being there. We pushed hard on the boat, but we pushed as an individual and not as one. We coulnt feel for each other, couldnt feel each stroke, each splash of the paddle as it went into the water. We seemed to be in a world of our own when we were down there in the water. The feeling was weird and silenced. There was an absence of the desire, the urge and want to push together as one and for each other. It was the first time that i felt so drained throughout the whole race. Not the physical drain, but the drain of the absence of team spirit in the boat that forced all of us to pull for the sake of pulling. It was wrong,but there was nothing we could do at that point of time.I never felt so helpless before. We all wanted to do something to help, but somehow it all came out wrong. Each shout of "long pull" and "reach out" lasted only for a few seconds, then there would be coordination problems. It was a race definitely to refect upon. 10 crew boat A heats. A race that i would never forget. Now i finally appreciate what team spirit and unity is about. It is not just about good coordination, its about the feeling of one. Its about the trust we have in each other in the boat, the belief that everyone is doing their best and even better. It is about rowing our hearts out for one another because we know that there are 9 or 19 others together in the same boat with you who are suffering the same pain that you are going through. And because of that, you want to be the one to push the hardest so as to minimise the pain in each one of them, to share the pain and to become stronger altogether. It is this passion and desire that would allow us to achieve what we never thought we could do. One heart. One soul. One team. We have what it takes, so why not put it to use? We have been through all the thick and thin together, suffered the same whackings, went through the same mental and physical trainings, but why was there a lack of this spirit and fel for each other today? i really felt very sad today. Even though the girls won the team trophy, but it was nothing to celebrate because we lost as a team altogether. I know the guys pushed hard, but it was just not there yet. The girls lost because we failed as a team. We are strong individually,but as long as there is a lack of team spirit, we can go no further, there would always be this limitation. I know Mr yong was utterly disappointed in us today. He had the reasons and the rights. He put in so much trust and faith in us by sending down the full junior team to take part in the race. He took the risk and dare, and he lost. I was really sad to see him shout for us during the race, yet we could do nothing to prove to him that we were strong and wiling to fight. We pushed to our limit, but could do no further during the power ins. Mr yong put almost his whole career life into this team. He sacrificed so much for this team and yet we failed him again and again.It is really time for us to refect upon our performances. We are really not up to standard yet, and the nationals are coming soon. This is the time to show Mr yong that it he was correct to put his trust in us. It is the time to show the college,mr yong and our seniors that the juniors have the guts and the strength to have what it takes. We must work very hard from now on, it is still not too late for improvements as long as we put our heart and mind to it. We will show Mr yong that we would be the best junior team ever and that we deserve to be in this team and deserve to have him as our coach and teacher. Junior team, i believe that we can do it. Heart and soul go the distance.

*me having fun @11:28 PM*

[[*Daddy]]

Her hair was up in a pony tail,
her favorite dress tied with a bow.
Today was "Daddy's Day" at school,
and she couldn't wait to go.

But her mommy tried to tell her,
that she probably should stay home.
Why the kids might not understand,
if she went to school alone.

But she was not afraid;
she knew just what to say.
What to tell her classmates
of why he wasn't there today.

But still her mother worried,
for her to face this day alone.
And that was why once again,
she tried to keep her daughter home.

But the little girl went to school
eager to tell them all.
Of a dad who's never there
a dad who never calls.

There were daddies along the wall in back,
for everyone to meet.
Children squirming impatiently,
anxious in their seats.

One by one the teacher called
a student from the class.
To introduce their daddy,
as seconds slowly passed.

At last the teacher called her name,
every child turned to stare.
each of them was searching,
for a man who wasn't there.

"Where's her daddy at?!"
she heard a boy call out.
"She probably doesn't have one,"
another student dared to shout.

And from somewhere near the back,
She heard another father say,
"Looks like another deadbeat dad,
too busy to waste his day."

The words did not offend her,
as she smiled up at her Mom,
and looked back at her teacher,
who told her to go on.

And with hands behind her back,
Slowly she began to speak
And out from the mouth of a child,
came words incredibly unique.

"My Daddy couldn't be here,
because he lives so far away.
But I know he wishes he could be,
Since this is such a special day.

And though you cannot meet him,
I wanted you to know.
All about my daddy
and how much he loves me so.

He loved to tell me stories
he taught me to ride my bike.
He surprised me with pink roses,
and taught me to fly a kite.

We used to share fudge sundaes,
and ice cream in a cone.
And though you cannot see him.
I'm not standing here alone."

"Cause my daddy's always with me,
even though we are apart
I know because he told me,
he'll forever be in my heart"

With that, her little hand reached up,
and lay across her chest.
Feeling her own heartbeat,
beneath her favorite dress.

And from somewhere in the crowd of dads,
her mother stood in tears.
Proudly watching her daughter,
who was wise beyond her years.

And when she dropped her hand back down,
staring straight into the crowd.
She finished with a voice so soft,
but its message clear and loud.

"I love my daddy very much,
he's my shining star.
And if he could, he'd be here,
but heaven's just too far "

"You see he was a fireman
and died just this past year
When airplanes hit the towers
and taught Americans to fear.

But sometimes when I close my eyes,
it's like he never went away."
And then she closed her eyes,
and saw him there that day.

And to her mother's amazement,
she witnessed with surprise.
A room full of daddies and children,
all starting to close their eyes.

Who knows what they saw before them,
Who knows what they felt inside
Perhaps for merely a second,
they saw him at her side.

"I know you're with me Daddy,"
to the silence she called out.
And what happened next made believers,
of those once filled with doubt.

Not one in that room could explain it,
for each of their eyes had been closed..
But there on the desk beside her,
was a fragrant long-stemmed pink rose.

Anon.

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