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[[Wednesday, May 10, 2006]]

My blogskin so fun la can.haha. its like msn like that. PHEW! Finally did up my blog. Been like a thousand gazillion years since I changed my skin and start to fully write up. Quite sad come to think of it. 5 months passed la, and all the wonderful memories are there in my mind somewhere.. but I just can’t seem to recall. Sometimes I wonder if I have short term memory loss. I really wanna hold on to all the fun and laughter that I experienced..but it all seems to be just hallucinations. Did I dream them? Gosh.. the entry seems to sound damn emotional la..haha.. not me man..ok.. back to crap time. Well yeah.. I was supposed to stay back to finish up my chem. Bonding on er.. mon.. but kinda ended up doing up the blog….i think black is such a cool colour.. so mysterious la XD like me..muahaha..aniwae.. today was a long last waiting day!! Finally got to train after 3 days!! Yah!! Blast the stupid flu..stupid cough.. stupid sore throat..hope they go away before the nat woman kayaking man.. PLEASE !! took k1 today, everything rocked except the sprinting part. I damn sad la can.. stupid stupid stupid! Why can’t I still balance on the boat?!!#%%^&*^% ARGH!!!! Was doing just fine before the starting line.. but after vivien shouted Go.. the boat seemed to like have a mind on its own. The direction was like off n so was the balance. I NEED TO CONTROL THE BOAT NOT E OTHER WAY ROUND!gosh! I gotta get that straight into my head!! So once again I was like the last for the sprints. Damn demoralizing la… depression… just hope that I would quickly improve soon.

This part below is dedicated to my WONDERFUL partner DAWN
And I am gonna miss my dear Dawn LOTS! 101% confirm wont get to row with her no more after nat woman kayaking.. 4 months n a bit more of trainings together. Its really a long time.. the longest partner ever since the starting of the year. All the sweat, blood n hardships that we have suffered together.. I AM GONNA MISS U DAWN!! SOBS.. I don’t like changes even though they are for the better.. I just wanna tell u dawn that even though I am not a very strong back rower.. so much weaker than the other senior back rowers.. but you have pushed me hard during training and for that I really thank you thousands.you taught me never to give up no matter how much pain we suffered together. I can still remember all those tough trainings that we lagged behind the other k2s, but we never gave up.. my whole body was aching and in so much pain.. but we didn’t give up. We just cried our way through the pain and continued to whack against all odds. Our balance was the main problem.. but we managed to overcome that.. even on an apache we could whack. I was like so blasting happy during the week we took apache cos we could balance on it.. the feeling was great man!! Throughout the 28k of the canoe marathon we encouraged one another and fought through the challenges against us.. even though u may not know it..i just wanted you to know that without you there..it would be very hard for me to complete the race.. it was the longest time I rowed nonstop ..and without your small figure(dun kill me 4 tat k?XD) in front of me for encouragement.. I wouldn’t have so much determination to go on..remember what u wrote to me? u said ur senior once told you that the most practical and effective way of encouragement is to put in POWER and pull as hard as you can for your partner.. I’ll remember that always and pass it on.....I’ll cherish all those trainings with you..i’ll learn from our mistakes and improve from them.. no matter what happens and what the line up is.. I just wanna you to know that the past 5 months of training with you would be an experience I would never forget.. it would be a once in a lifetime thing that I would cherish and keep with me forever.. the national woman’s kayaking would be our last race.. we can do it dawn.. I am gonna put my 101% effort in it. WE CAN DO IT!!! I will race and pia until the end.. we shall not give up.. consistent all the way!!! Like wad u said.. dun be afraid of the pain.. it will come.. but it will definitely go away.. this I shall remember especially during the 1000m race.. !! WE CAN DO IT DAWN!! The final grand finale of our partnership XD!! Heart n soul go e distance !! LOVE, SIJING ALWAYS!!!!

*me having fun @10:09 PM*

[[*Daddy]]

Her hair was up in a pony tail,
her favorite dress tied with a bow.
Today was "Daddy's Day" at school,
and she couldn't wait to go.

But her mommy tried to tell her,
that she probably should stay home.
Why the kids might not understand,
if she went to school alone.

But she was not afraid;
she knew just what to say.
What to tell her classmates
of why he wasn't there today.

But still her mother worried,
for her to face this day alone.
And that was why once again,
she tried to keep her daughter home.

But the little girl went to school
eager to tell them all.
Of a dad who's never there
a dad who never calls.

There were daddies along the wall in back,
for everyone to meet.
Children squirming impatiently,
anxious in their seats.

One by one the teacher called
a student from the class.
To introduce their daddy,
as seconds slowly passed.

At last the teacher called her name,
every child turned to stare.
each of them was searching,
for a man who wasn't there.

"Where's her daddy at?!"
she heard a boy call out.
"She probably doesn't have one,"
another student dared to shout.

And from somewhere near the back,
She heard another father say,
"Looks like another deadbeat dad,
too busy to waste his day."

The words did not offend her,
as she smiled up at her Mom,
and looked back at her teacher,
who told her to go on.

And with hands behind her back,
Slowly she began to speak
And out from the mouth of a child,
came words incredibly unique.

"My Daddy couldn't be here,
because he lives so far away.
But I know he wishes he could be,
Since this is such a special day.

And though you cannot meet him,
I wanted you to know.
All about my daddy
and how much he loves me so.

He loved to tell me stories
he taught me to ride my bike.
He surprised me with pink roses,
and taught me to fly a kite.

We used to share fudge sundaes,
and ice cream in a cone.
And though you cannot see him.
I'm not standing here alone."

"Cause my daddy's always with me,
even though we are apart
I know because he told me,
he'll forever be in my heart"

With that, her little hand reached up,
and lay across her chest.
Feeling her own heartbeat,
beneath her favorite dress.

And from somewhere in the crowd of dads,
her mother stood in tears.
Proudly watching her daughter,
who was wise beyond her years.

And when she dropped her hand back down,
staring straight into the crowd.
She finished with a voice so soft,
but its message clear and loud.

"I love my daddy very much,
he's my shining star.
And if he could, he'd be here,
but heaven's just too far "

"You see he was a fireman
and died just this past year
When airplanes hit the towers
and taught Americans to fear.

But sometimes when I close my eyes,
it's like he never went away."
And then she closed her eyes,
and saw him there that day.

And to her mother's amazement,
she witnessed with surprise.
A room full of daddies and children,
all starting to close their eyes.

Who knows what they saw before them,
Who knows what they felt inside
Perhaps for merely a second,
they saw him at her side.

"I know you're with me Daddy,"
to the silence she called out.
And what happened next made believers,
of those once filled with doubt.

Not one in that room could explain it,
for each of their eyes had been closed..
But there on the desk beside her,
was a fragrant long-stemmed pink rose.

Anon.

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